The air molecules have been increasing in size for the past few days.
It has been getting harder and harder to breathe.
I have been taking more deep breaths.
I can feel the drawing and explusion of the air in every single expansion and contraction of my pharygeal muscles when air is drawn into the lungs. Every single air molecule travelling through my larynx, down my trachea, to my bronchi then to bronchioles and finally the bursting of every alveolus with each amount of air deeply inhaled.


Everytime I frown, my eyebrows got closer.
My head got heavier and tighter.
Much unsaid things and unanswerable questions have been playing, rewinding and playing again in my mind.. like a spoilt recorder. Tiring is all I can say.


I just need a deep deep sleep where silence is really golden. And where I can sleep like a baby.
There is just too much noise out there.


Tears have always been a sign of my weakness.
But I'm feeling so tired and helpless that my tear glands are not working anymore.



Lyrics extracted from Title: Kenny Loggins - Your Heart Will Lead You Home:


" if you feel lost and on your own and far from home....

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there'll come a day when you're losing your way
and you won't know where you belong
they say that home is where your heart is
so follow your heart know that you can't go wrong "





Yes.
I need to get out of this bloody maze.


All my gods & goddesses.. where in heaven are you???



-tHe eNd-